I finally caved in...it shows just how stubborn i really am..
For the past year and a bit,its all ive heard about from a trusted family friend,natural remedy guru,favorite healer..is ORMUS
Many many pointers from the universe that i should give it a go..
and everything else aligning so i couldnt ... that should have really been enough for me to try it...but i didnt.
The fact it is "alchemy"..the name of a book i delayed giving birth for 7hrs to finish,and that i thought at the time "if this is real,then i can do it" but i never tried...life took over,or in retrospect was the world taking over and my life disappeared?
Ive been sick..for a long long time,tried a million potions,lotions,drugs,herbs,energy etc etc etc...i was pretty much over it,and whenever someone would say "ive heard of this dude that cures cancer,lupus,aids"..my mind would shut down..
My attention was prickled by the suggestion of another "cure"..what i have labeled "the cat-bed"
For years as an undiagnosed Lupus sufferer,i was told my symptoms were not real...so my scientific side went on to research what kind of mental health condition i could have that would cause me to imagine such horrific pain....my "hippie" side did what it could with what was available to cope with these "phantom" pains..
I painted my house dark,went full goth look? why? white walls burn my eyes and my brain and my migraines and anxiety that came with them dramatically reduced..
My cat started the next one...whenever id be in severe pain,id sit on my bed and just cry...my little man,Jack,would come and love upon me til i would stop crying and love him back...he would then take his position,like magic,and lay down and give me the signal..so i would lay on him,my chest almost squishing him and pat and pat and pat..the more love he got,the more healing would flow from my cat..."hippie" me would just think thats how the universe works,give love,get love..."scientific" me would accept that cats purrs vibrate at a particular frequency that allows for the rapid regeneration and re-knitting of damaged cells,muscles,bones..scientific FACT..
Id sit and imagine if i could have anything in this world,itd be a mattress full of happy cats all purring in sync,ultimate healing..
So i hear of this guy thats invented his "vibrating table" and thought "this guy's not an idiot"...if he gets the frequency right,itll be my fantasy "catbed"
But then they stuck me on Pills that made me not sure about my body for the first time ever..i never went to the catbed man, and i didnt take the Ormus..
Weeks on breakdown mode,i finally cracked..lost it,bigtime...told all my friends on fb to stick it and finally showed im human and weak like everyone else...
And of course,thats when miracles happen.
